Tuesday, December 14, 2010

let the past be the past

Money may come and go
but a BFF is forever.
Because even when you’re not sure
where you’re headed,
it helps to know that
you’re not going there alone.

No one has all the answers,
and sometimes,
the best we can do is just apologize
and let the past be the past.

Other times,
we need to look to the future,
and know the even when we think
we’ve seen it all,
life can still surprise us,
and we can still surprise ourselves.

These are those SONGS

there are songs that make us want to dance
songs that make us want to sing along
but the best songs are
the ones that bring you back
to the moment you first heard 'em
and once again, break your heart

some say LOVE IS A RIVER
It lifts us up where we belong

some say,
love is hearing laughter in the rain
but here all I know LOVE IS PAIN

-adapted from GG-


Sometimes despite the risk,
the most important thing
is to seize the moment
or whatever else you can grab.

With enough time,
we all find what we're looking for.
Even if it was there all along.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010


Another year has come and gone.
And what am I most thankful for?

The L I F E

And giving experience chances to sneak in
is the best thing I've ever done.

Salam 1 Muharram, everyone!


The ancient Greek philosopher Epictetus said,
" Nature has given to men
one tongue but two ears,
that we may hear from others twice
as much as we speak "

If all of use practiced this formula,
it's amazing how much better
our work and personal lives would be.

Good listeners not only
hear what's being said but
they are also able to understand.

When you let other people feel
like they've been heard and understood,
it opens doors to loyalty,
reduces conflict and creates trust.

Being a good listener improves
your ability to get along
with other people.
There is no doubt
it will help you in personal life.

Thus in short,be a good listener.
Just listen and shut the fuck up!
I mean, come on man...
I just wanna share stories with you,
not listening to u blabbering much!

Monday, December 6, 2010


Usually I have a "never say never" policy,
but for you I'll make an exception.

I'm not sure why everytime he text me,
he will say "I miss u blablabla"
Then it well go long and long,
lastly it'll end up with harsh words.
Quarelling and then silence.

True,I do miss him.
And yes,I hate him.
That's all,nothing much and less.
His super-fucking-ego...
Think I can't type anymore.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010


"Bila kau duduk, aku ingin jadi kerusimu.
Bila kau baring, aku ingin jadi bantalmu.
Bila kau berjalan, aku ingin jadi sepatumu.
Bila jantung kau berdegup, aku ingin jadi hatimu."

I forgot where I found these poems,
but I like the way it tells
how the couple complete each other.

To my dearest one,
we started nothing,
but I like the way it happened...
coz I love you the way you are!

ME and YOU,

Tuesday, November 23, 2010


"ready with your notebook & pencil,guys?"

Annoying question,heh?

Well,a new semester has begin.
I'm not sure whether to say

But I hope it will run smoothly.

Thursday, November 18, 2010


A family reunited,
and it feels not-so-good.
I wish upon a star~

It's been 6 years,
but nothing's changed.
Still the same him.
True,nothing's changed.
Except his hair turn into grey.
And tadaa!
A bit skinny.

I think if I keep bitching
about how not-so-thrilled
I am to meet him,
he must be sad and disappointed.

Anyway, 6 years.
Maybe he did not realised that
many things have changed since then.
His lil' princess has grown up to
a big girl now.

But, truth is only God knows
how much I love and miss him.

Monday, November 8, 2010


So you did it just to hurt me.
The lie you've just told me
have turn you into someone I don't love to.
You just brought back your worst self.
This means war,man.
ME vs YOU.
No limits.

My world would be easier if you didn’t come back.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

A.N.T.Z !

"semut berkomunikasi dengan menggosokkan sesungutnya"

Owh,patut la...
Now I've got the answer!
Selama ni orang cakap aku buang tebiat
dok perhati koloni semut lama2.
Ada kalanya tanpa sedar sampai setengah jam
aku leka tengok semut2 bekerja.

Aku jadi hairan setiap kali ternampak
semut2 tu bertembung
dari arah bertentangan,
mereka seakan2 bercium. (???)

Kadang2 bila aku sekat laluan mereka,
mereka memang akan gunakan laluan lain.
Tapi selepas aku mengalihkan tangan aku,
mereka akan kembali menggunakan laluan asal.
Dan laluan tu tak tersasar sedikit pun
dari landasan (siap aku lukis track lagi tuhh).

"semut mempunyai otak yang paling besar
dalam alam haiwan,
jika dibandingkan dengan nisbah saiz badannya"

Thursday, October 14, 2010

not so MUET day

It's MUET!
I was a bit nervous.
I am the first candidate to present,
from the first group after all!
I aim for band 5 but if it's not 5,
at least band 4...pliss~

The question sounds like this:
"If you were given a chance to learn a free skill,
which one would you choose?"

A-music instruments
B-foreign languange
C-set up a small biz
D-drive a car

Since I was candidate A for that day,
like it or not I have to opt for the first skill.


...and here is the answer...

If I were given a chance to learn a free skill,
I would choose how to play music instruments.


Well,signing up for a music lesson is a bit pricey.
I can't afford to pay for those music lessons.
Thus, why don't I grab this
once-in-a-lifetime opportunity?
I would describe this as a dream come true offer.

To expose myself to a new experience.
Apart form just listening to the pieces,
it would be great if I can play 'em by myself.
Maybe I can be experimenting with 'em!

To discover my another hidden talent.
They know I can paint, I can sew, I can cook.
Who knews, maybe I can play music too?

Whenever I attend orchestra concerts or any perfomances,
definitely I would attend with a knowledge.
I don't want to be look as a dumb.
I want to give my own opinion.
I can talk afterwards about what was seen and heard.

To keep a healthy lifestyle.
If I intend to move around quite a bit
or have very little space in my days,
definitely my parents would not agree
with the idea of loitering around.
Jamming session with friends
will be the best excuse. HAHA!

As a way of relaxation.
No need to explain much about that.

Well hurm, I do not really know how to socialize.
I am timid and shy person (am I??HEHE)
I think this is the best to overcome this problem
as it can help to raise up my level of confidence
and communication skill.

Consider the economical aspect.
If I am good enuf with my skill,
perhaps I can join any band in their performance.
I don't want to aim for an orchestra.
But I wish to participate
in small and large performing groups.
I will earn my pocket money,
no need to rely to much from mum's.

Last but not least,
The ability to play a musical instrument
is indeed very fulfilling.
Trust me,there will be no regrets.

*this conclusion,hukhuk...
not enuff time!
The examiner have to stop me*


Thinking back,
this is actually the way I should answer.
I know I can do better than that.
2 minutes is not enuff.
I even can't conclude.
SIGH~ :"(

But I least,I've tried my best.
Better than Indian looking guy.
When I was presenting my points,
seemed like he underestimated me.
Same thing happened to other two candidates.
with the laughing and jerk mimic face,
as if he's the best.

Guess what happened next?
When it comes to him,
he made a HUUUGE mistake.
He didn't present his point,
but he took candidate B's point.
See who's the stupid one here?

The examiner already gave the instructions,
but I think he didn't pay his attention.
(perhaps he thought that's he good enuff
for not listening it).
Well boy, serve u right.
Handsome, but arrogant.

Saturday, July 31, 2010


Korang pernah makan nasi putih
berlaukkan telur goreng, kicap & sup kosong tak?
Menu ni selalu aku makan bila mak masak lauk
yang aku tak suka makan,
ataupun bilamana aku dah jemu dengan
lauk2 yang sedia ada.
Aku tak tahu menu ni ada nama rupanya.
Bukan satu,bahkan macam2 nama.
Nasi Bujang...Nasi Koboi...
yang paling best tu Nasi Happy Meal =)

Aku taw nama dia nasi bujang tu pun
baru 3 tahun lepas.
Terpinga2 gak la dengar kawan2
pakat dok sebut nak order Nasi Bujang.
Kagum aku (tak tau nape)
Lagi bertambah kagum sebab harganya
RM 1.50 je,tapi rasanya perghh layan!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010


Yang ku alami mungkin misteri
Ketika ini
Mungkinkah sudah ku jatuh cinta
Dapatkah kau rasakan apa yang kurasa

Oh tak pernah tak bisa ku kawal diriku
Separuh nyawa aku merindu
Ku berdebar bila bersemuka
Ku tidak tahu mengapa reaksiku yang ketara

Kau buat ku kata, OOH! LA! LA! LA! LA!
Setiap masa, OOH! LA! LA! LA!
Bicara mempesona, OOH! LA! LA! LA! LA!
Mana saja kau di minda, OOH! LA! LA! LA!

(credit to KRU - OOH LA LA)

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Anything BUT Ordinary

Long ago,my mom said
being ORDINARY is best.
When I was in school
my teacher taught me
to aim for EXTRA-ORDINARY.
Amongst, I decided to be JUST-TIYA.
Not more than that.


Yes, I am what I am.
That's why I hate people who like
to determine wut other people should be.
But sometimes we juz can't avoid it.
Name it; to satisfy OR to show gratitude.
How I wish I could set myself free.

Free to make my own decision.
Free to wander around.
Free to express my feeling.

I have my own will.
But that doesn't mean I don't need you,

Monday, June 28, 2010

Thursday, June 24, 2010

PANTUN SKET, bhai...!!

dalam hati ada taman,
dalam taman ada bunga,
bunga bukan sekuntum,
pergi petik bunga lain.


I ada kawan.
Nama dia "madafakas".
Tak percaya?
Entah la,dia yang cakap nama dia camtu.
I suka je kawan dengan dia.
Tapi ada hari2 yg buat I bengang dengan dia.

Dia suka mencarut.
Dia suka membebel.
Dia suka kutuk orang.
Dia suka buat2 kononnya dia kenal & faham I.
Dia suka masuk campur urusan peribadi I.
Dia suka desak I buat benda yang I tak suka.
Dia suka imitate style I.

I harap dia ada 9 nyawa macam kucing.
Sebab, I nak bunuh dia.
Motif I nak dia ada 9 nyawa?
Well, I ni kan pemaaf.
Setiap orang harus diberi peluang kedua.
Tapi camne kalau dia ulang lagi kesalahan sama?

Cukup 9 kali I mnyampah ngn dia,
I pun tanam la dia.
Habis cerita.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010


hate TYPICAL man
the way he tries hard to IMPRESS me
the way he ADORES me "like-a-goddess"
the way he CONTROL my life
the way he DETERMINE what should I wear
the way he tries to show me he's the BEST
the way he ask (BEGGING???) for my love
the way he pretending to BE COOL
whenever I make him angry




where is your PRIDE,
when you keep begging and begging me?

do you think you are GENTLEMAN
enuf' if you open the car door for me?

expressing your anger doesn't mean
you have to beat me...
just tell me the truth,
and I will stop doing that irritating thing.

we are DIFFERENT in many ways,
so if you don't like anything that I like,
please just say it.

we don't SHARE the same interest.
the music,the fashion,the food,the drink,the movie.
go ahead with your style,
do not condemn others like you are so-stylo!

I am what I am.
Whether you like it or not,
you have to accept it.
Don't expect me to change to yours,
in a blink of an eye.

I ain't no good girl.
Stop the-adore-me thing.
I am suffocated with it.
GO and FIND another girl,
that suit you best,
that will follow your "command".
This is not an army site.
I wanna live freely & happily.

Friday, June 11, 2010


Crying for you,
Missing for you,
Dear I miss you,
I'll be waiting for you.

Never say goodbye,
I need you,
I want you.

Because I'm stupid,
Now that I'm losing you.

Monday, June 7, 2010


"Birds fly high,
hard to catch.
Love like you,
hard to forget!"


It's not easy to forget him.
Pretending like nothing ever happen.
Coz every single place I go,
I'll either met or heard
the word "moon".
It seems as that word
can't be vanished or separated
from my life.

The more I try to forget him,
the more I miss him.
Ergh,this is so pathethic.
No matter how rude or how harsh his words
towards me,
I never hate him
instead of loving him more and more.
Sound silly,yea?
But it's true YAWW!

Saturday, June 5, 2010


You are always very warm
And always comfort me
Warmly and softly

Thank you
For making me laugh happily
And thank you
For the greatest words

I'm really sorry
That I can't give you
That kind of comfort in return

I wasn't your air
I was just a breeze
That you mistook for the air

Saturday, May 29, 2010


Kita sentiasa berusaha untuk memuaskan hati semua orang.
Tapi percayalah, itu mustahil.

Caci, maki, tikam belakang.
Ohh, itu lumrah.

Perit, pahit.
Apa boleh buat?
Telan dan senyum sahaja.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010


As I return home from college,I got pissed off.
I saw my kaleidoskop on the coffee table.
And the cover was missing!

Sunday, May 23, 2010


" Oh little miss sunshine
What are you doing?
Don't let your guard down "

I'm standing here, in the rain
Somewhere in my heart
I knew it
That you'll leave me cold

Though I'm seeing
The same view like yesterday
Walking the same road as yesterday
My world has totally changed

I will never laugh like that again
The old me,
Is no longer exist

Trying to love even it's impossible
Is it wrong?

I am not being greedy
For asking you to love me back
In return,
Will you at least notice me?

Saturday, May 22, 2010


After a while I learn the difference
between holding a hand & falling in love.
I begin to learn that kisses don't always mean something.
Promises can be broken just as quickly as they are made.
... and ...
Goodbyes are really forever!

Friday, April 30, 2010


I found this on my frenz FB.
Too bad, he didn't have his own blog.
I think this is nice,
so that I decided to re-post it here.

Read this "HATE letter".
It is so funny and creative.
This is a loveletter from a boy to a girl.
However, the girl's father does not like him
and want them stop their relationship.
So, the boy wrote this letter to the girl.
He knows that the girl's father will definitely read this letter.

1 "The great love that I have for you
2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you
3 grows every day. When I see you,
4 I do not even like your face;
5 the one thing that I want to do is to
6 look at other girls. I never wanted to
7 marry you. Our last conversation
8 was very boring and has not
9 made me look forward to seeing you again.
10 You think only of yourself.
11 If we were married, I know that I would find
12 life very difficult, and I would have no
13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
14 to give, but it is not something that
15 I want to give to you. No one is more
16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
17 able to care for me and help me.
18 I sincerely want you to understand that
19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
20 if you think this is the end. Do not try
21 to answer this. Your letters are full of
22 things that do not interest me. You have no
23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that
25 I am still your boyfriend."

So bad!!
However, before handing over the letter to the girl,
the boy ask the girl to
meaning only to read
(the odd numbers)
So,please try reading it again!
It's so smart & sweet!

p/s : thanx Ayie! =)

Monday, April 26, 2010


For a few weeks I keep bugging to everyone
about getting my hair cut.
This morning,
I just have my hair cut & layered.
Feel light & young! YAYY!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

BUENOS NOCHES, everyone!

y' mademoiselle Tiya,
Que pasa,pasa?
agitate,agitate,agitate! aihh~

I'm trying to sleep with a broken heart.

por favor deje de llorar.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


This morning,
I'm still breathing
with rain,rainbow and sunshine behind me.
thanx God,thanx God.

The journey is still not ended
I decided not to give up
Life's too short for hating
That's why I'm still loving you

Tuesday, April 6, 2010


ku geledah, ku selongkar
habis bersepah
namun yang dicari tetap tak jumpa

Monday, April 5, 2010


I still remember 31st November.
The night that he said he loves me,
and I replied the same.
Since that moments ever,
we shared everything.

Kami bersama tak lama,
beberapa bulan je.
Tapi dalam bulan-bulan itu,
saya tak pernah berhenti tersenyum.
Bila orang bertanya kenapa
saya begitu bangga untuk bercerita,
saya sekadar menjawab
bahawa saya sedang dilamun cinta
dengan seseorang yang membuatkan
hidup saya jadi begitu indah.

Kami berkongsi macam-macam.
Indahnya bagaikan sesuatu
yang sukar digambarkan dengan kata-kata.
Impian,minat dan cita-cita
semuanya bersatu dalam satu rasa.
Waktu itu saya rasakan seperti
saya berada di satu tempat
yang mana hati saya tidak akan terluka.
Saya terlalu gembira,
tidak pernah merasa sakit atau sedih.
Tidak pernah.

Hinggalah satu masa...
Dia melukakan saya,
bukan sepertimana waktu dia berjanji
bahawa dia takkan pernah menyakiti saya.
Waktu itu,saya rasakan dunia saya gelap.
Bulan tak lagi bersinar.
Kecewa,tapi saya harus tetap melangkah.

Friday, March 26, 2010


Back when we were grown-ups,
what’s the most memorable thing
has crossed up in your minds?

Well as for me,
perhaps it's the time when
I used to ride my bike every evening
in the backyard.

Or chasing and killing some chicks
with my slipper.
HAHA, sorry dad!

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


There are a lot,lot of stars
But only one star
Is twinkling so handsomely
I can only see star like that

You dumped me hundred times
But I still waiting for it
The time that
You'll love undoubtly

All day I was trying
To forget you
I came to remember you more

You might think this is stupid
But I'd rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all

There are a lot, lot of stars
But only one star
I can clearly see
One special star right now!


Tiba2 aku rasa nak buat inkblot macam topeng Rorschach.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


"8 tahun tunggu bas tak sampai, akhirnya aku pergi jalan kaki"

Well,did I ever told you earlier?
That LOVE is not like a punch card.
Easy come,easy go.
That's why I can't easily accept you.

As for your effort, THANX!
I dedicate this song for you yaww!


Ku tahu kau malu hati
Saat tertangkap basah melirikku
Sering kau terlihat bodoh
Bila berada di dekat diriku

Ku memang cantik dan baik hati
Tak heran bila kau mengagumi
dan ingin miliki

Terus kejar aku
Jangan pernah menyerah tuk dapatkan aku
Tunggu saja nanti
Hingga aku tak mampu mengelak untuk mencintaimu

Ku tahu kau malu hati
Saat kau titipkan salam untukku
Sering kau terlihat bodoh
Waktu kau coba tuk mempesonaku

Ku memang cantik dan baik hati
Tak heran bila kau mengagumi
Dan ingin miliki

Monday, March 8, 2010


After a long while,
suddenly I feel like
crying on mom's shoulder,
hugging her & sleeping wit her

I can't believe I wrote this!
Truth is, I love mom.
But I keep hurting her heart.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Thursday, March 4, 2010


" You broke my heart, so I broke your car "
U WHAT ???!

Don't blame me
if I didn't hear what you are saying.
Coz your words are fucking harsh.
Actually I was just pretending
like I didn't listen to you.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010


It's already twelve
Sorry for stealing your time
Can you listen to my part?

It feels like I need you here
But also like I don't
I want to meet you
But I don't want to see you

Do you understand what I mean?
These unnecessary worries,ohh...
Does my dilemma mean I need you?
Is it "I love you more than I hate you?"

The earth is round
No matter how far I run
In the end
I'll come back loving you

I feel suffocated
As though the air I breathe was all gone
Don't wanna seeing your face
It is just a pathetic of me

Me being cold and harsh
Is just a mask
Truth is I really need them,
Your warm and gentle

Monday, March 1, 2010


" My secret admirer,
I never thot' my heart cud be so yearning.
Plis tell me now y u try to ignore me.
Coz I do miss u so!"

Swinging, singing, see the fishes swimming.

I wonder why he stop bothering me,
like he always does.
No call or even a message.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

SOBER, don't cry

This poem is about a girl who'd lost someone she love.
He used to be her light, a shoulder to cry on,
give her strength & confidence to live her life
but that guy left her and she felt lonely.

Until one bright shining day,
she found a new moon
and he make her oh-so-happy!

P/S :
I'm not a good poet,
just trying to express my feeling.
This is actually one of BEL120 task.
My lecturer said : good effort! (???)
Too shy to recite this in front of my fwenz..uhh

Saturday, January 16, 2010


It's been quite long kan?
Banyak kerja lahh.
Rindu tapi sibuk.